Friday, October 14, 2016
As many of you know, my oldest daughter, Maggie, has a rare disease called Prader Willi Syndrome. It is a highly complex condition --because the constant backdrop of her life is that she feels hungry no matter how much food she has eaten. Her hunger can never be satisfied, so thoughts of food never cease for her.
Maggie, is resilient and strong--and she forges ahead through each day with such love in her heart. She is full of potential and purpose. Yet, certain situations create tremendous stress for her, especially in the school environment.
Thus, I am often "on-call" and need to be available to collaborate with her school to create solutions that support her success.
The past few weeks have been particularly challenging. So, I have had my "advocate hat" on and I've been working with the school team to come up with the next set of solutions for Maggie.
In creating new solutions, sometimes we also then stir up new challenges.
So, this morning, the moment I woke up, my mind was working on over-drive. Even as I tried to settle down and empty myself for a few moments of Divine silence, I found my mind on high speed.
As I sat in this state, I realized that once again, I was trying to figure it all out. I was trying to get into the future to predict what would happen and conjure up a million possible scenarios of how to make things better. I suddenly smiled. And, took a deep breath. I went back to my understanding that no amount of worry right now will solve something in the future. All I have is THIS moment, the Present moment.
The intense challenges that surround Maggie's rare disease have been one of the greatest teachers of my life. Because there is no easy solution, I truly CAN'T figure it all out. So, I have over and over been forced to surrender and open to receiving solutions that are BEYOND ME. When I finally stop the frantic thinking and open my heart, "God, what do I need to know about this situation? God, what is needed for Maggie?"...it is then that quiet whispers and solutions are shown to me.
As I smiled at my own inner, insane struggle this morning, here are the words that flowed to me:
"Trish, not knowing the solution is a Divine place to be. When you surrender and admit that you just don't know what will help in a situation, the space for Divine revelation and inspiration open up for you. When you are fully present and open in the moment, everything you need to know will be revealed to you. These inspired ideas come from beyond what you can think of, beyond what you can project into the future...Fresh thinking, creative solutions that will help you pioneer a new path for yourself will flow in and give you the next step needed."
So, here I am once again at the cutting edge of my growth. I find myself in a space of not knowing what to do or say. I find myself in tears as the patterns of fears emerge. Then, through the stream of hot tears that come down my cheeks I receive that perfect ah-ha: I don't have to figure this all out at 5 a.m. this morning. I can relax into God's loving arms. I can trust this process. I have been given the Divine answer in every situation I faced with Maggie for the past 13 years, so that will be the case today as well.
It is as if the built up worry that filled me from head to toe finally began to drain into the ground beneath me. This human journey is CRAZILY INTENSE sometimes. But, I see that the struggles that are on my path are what is causing me to rise to my next level of understanding and compassion for myself and others.
I'm grateful for it all. And, each day I am learning to find the humor in it rather than taking it all so seriously.
I pray that what I've shared from my heart helps or inspires you in some way. First, I don't have a perfect life. I have messy struggles and challenges too. That doesn't mean anything is wrong --it just means that I'm being trained and grown. And, for that I am truly grateful. I say that my life purpose is to help myself and others reach their full potential. Thus, I am given the set of "training" situations that will allow my potential to emerge further so that I am forced to apply and learn everything I teach and share with others.
From the deepest part of my heart to yours, let's choose present-moment peace....and know that Divine answers come just when we need them.
With all my love,
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Too many of us have gotten stuck in the Comparison Game. We look at people around us and compare our journey to theirs. We take in commercials of perfect looking people living in Martha Stewart Homes, wearing designer clothes and seeming to "have it all" and we choose to spend time comparing ourselves to this "ideal life." These patterns of thinking cause us to feel "less than" or "not good enough."
The comparison game is draining, isn't it?
It saps the vital life force, the creative energy and zest for life we each have at our disposal.
Who said we were all made to live on this one specifically deemed "success track" of life? Striving, exhausting ourselves day in and day out to live this picture perfect life and then feeling a sense of inner despair when what we have just doesn't seem to satisfy our soul.
Today is a day we can each choose to question the status quo.
Today is a fresh opportunity to ask ourselves some vital questions that can lead toward a deeper awareness and a sense of new possibilities.
Today is a day to investigate the "Comparison Thinking" that leads us toward depression, stress and a sense of just not ever being good enough.
So, put your seat belt on. Challenge yourself a little bit. Just because you have thought one particular way your entire life doesn't mean you have to continue doing so.
In fact, YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO CHANGE YOUR THINKING ANY MOMENT YOU WANT TO!
For those of us yearning to wake up and feel better, perhaps a little thinking tune up will be just what the doctor ordered.
Here are some questions to shake up the old thought patterns a bit....to stimulate your awareness of the myriad of new choices we each have to wake up and become free within:
What if you were BORN WORTHY and you don't have to spend all day every day trying so hard to convince people that you are worthwhile? What would you be doing differently today if you knew that you were born acceptable just as you are?
What if there are as many versions of a "successful life" as there are people on this planet? What if you could create your own definition of a successful life--one that might have to do with more than just the material world, titles and status symbols? How would you define success for you?
What if you realized you don't have to prove anything to anyone? What if you allowed yourself to just BE YOU FULLY all day today without pretense or effort? How would life feel if you gave yourself this type of inner freedom?
What if you are not meant to FIT IN? What if instead, you were meant to be unique, quirky, unusual, outside the box (what the heck is this BOX anyway??)? What if the best gift you can give the world is to allow yourself the opportunity to be your naturally gifted self?
My prayer today is that each of us will begin to become aware of how often we allow "comparison thinking" to take over our minds. Remember, your thoughts trigger your emotions, your emotions trigger what you do and the cumulative effect of all of this is your life experience. If you feel dissatisfied with your current life experience the key is to go back to the THINKING that got you where you are today.
Do this with a playful, light heart. Like a child walking around a vast field with a magnifying glass studying flowers, grass, bugs, and dirt...imagine yourself taking a tour of your thinking in the same way. Be curious, interested. Grow your awareness.
Who knows, you might just find that one small thought you can change that will change the entire trajectory of your life!
If you need support in this process, you can always leave a question or comment here on this blog and I will take the time to answer. Or, you can contact me via my website: www.patriciaomoqui.com .
Exploring the inner realms with you,
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
We each have this deep, often unspoken, feeling that "There Must Be Something More". That little whisper within that sometimes build to a piercing scream in our soul is meant to be heard. As we pay attention to our inner yearnings and our deeper knowings, we enter the space for miraculous transformation.
Today, I want to bring you a bit of exciting news. I had the fortune this weekend of spending 2 full days with 40 amazing new friends at a course for Applied Positive Psychology offered by the Flourishing Center. My inner cup was filled with information and inspiration to the point where I am literally OVERFLOWING with possibility.
Before I give you a few nuggets of opportunity, I want you to know that we each have the possibility to Thrive rather than Survive. Too often we think that living in dread is "just the way it is." We have learned to accept high levels of stress as normal. We experience states of dismissal physical and mental health and figure that we just have to get by. We have come to believe that since everyone else is doing it this way, it must be the way it has to be. Hmm, is it?
What if we would begin to honor our inner yearnings? We can begin to pay attention to the constant signals our bodies, minds and spirits are offering us throughout the day. We can begin to find new ways of being, of thinking, of feeling and doing that allow us to feel better on daily basis.
In fact, the research shows that while 50% of life satisfaction is related to our genetics (our biological set point), only 10% of our happiness is based on life conditions. Guess what? The remaining 40% of our Happiness Pie is attributed to intentional activities--what we think, do and feel! We each have the power to influence our daily well-being and happiness in more ways than we have been aware.
You may ask, "Why the heck didn't anyone teach me this in school?" GOOD QUESTION! I wondered the same thing. The good news is this -- we can learn now to find very simple, practical ways to increase our well-being.
Friends, GET EXCITED! We can begin to choose to feel better each day! We can begin to experiment with new possibilities--to not just trudge through each day--but to foster enjoyment each day and feel better each day. Are you ready for that? I know I am.
So, as a small start, here are a couple of easy opportunities for the day ahead that will begin to re-orient you to a new, fresh perspective:
1. Shift your questions. When we ask a question, we get a certain type of answer. What we seek, we find. So many of us have been programmed to ask, "What's wrong?" Focusing on what's not working can causes us to feel sad, upset, depressed and dis-empowered. What if instead, we started asking: What's right? What's right with me? What's right with this person? What's right in this situation? What's right in the World? What's right with this situation?
When we search for what is good, we open ourselves to feeling better. As we feel better inside, we increase our energy, our creativity, our sense of possibility to handle and deal with the vast set of opportunities to improve ourselves, our lives and the World around us.
Establish a daily gratitude routine and place reminders to express gratitude all around you. Place a note on your bathroom mirror, a gratitude alarm on your phone, a post-it in your cubicle at work that keeps you asking throughout the day, "What am I grateful for?" You can even put a gratitude journal by your bed and before sleeping, write a quick list of the good things that happened throughout your day.
Want to make gratitude even easier? Get a friend, family member or co-worker to commit to doing this with you for the next 30 days. Imagine how invigorating it would be to spend a few minutes in conversation doing gratitude "Ping-Pong"--going back and forth in conversation sharing specific things in your life that you are grateful for! (Use your break at work to do this together rather than lamenting about the negative news or chatting about politics).
You may even want to take gratitude a step deeper. Who is it in your life that you know it's time to write a letter of gratitude to? Choose a person. Write a deeply, heartfelt letter filled with specific examples of why you are grateful for them. Then, rather than mailing it, go visit them in person. Don't hand them the letter--read the letter aloud to them. Imagine the depth of connection and beautiful emotion that will come about by sharing an experience like this with someone in your life who you deeply care about.
I don't want to overwhelm you friends. So, I will stop there for now. There will be many more blogs to come where I share proven ways to improve your life experience.
If you are hungry for more right now, check out the hundreds of blogs I've already written! There is a treasure trove here of information to increase your well-being. And, then, take it a step further--share this blog with your realm of influence. You have the power to start a positive wave of change!
My heart yearns for a happier, more positive world where we all THRIVE together.
I'm practicing with you!
With all my love,
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
I write today with urgency and sadness, wishing so much for you to hear on a deep level what I need to share.
We lack awareness of the essential nature of caring for our energy, of fostering a relaxed, happy, lighter-hearted way of Being.
Consider how most humans literally bathe in nasty, stinky, rotten energy all day (hey-that is what we have been taught to do and what we are used to): Fearful news stories 24 x 7, gossip, complaining, worry, and the dark, abyss of traumatic pain within ourselves that we have put aside and not taken the time to heal and clean up.
Clearly, living this way would create a reactive, raw, upset earth Being.
Yet, there are so many other choices, other streams of energy to live within: gratitude, uplifting stories of those helping others, affirmation of self and others, belief in the possibilities of one's dreams.
Our choices must go far beyond just "thinking positive." There is a whole deeper level of true caring for one's energy field.
Think of it this way, the human's energy field has many "landmines"--bombs that were dropped in it as far back as childhood, that have never been cleared. Most humans are unaware of this. Yet, they explode and implode regularly as they navigate their day and get triggered by someone who steps in just the wrong place in their energy field. Yet, why don't we ever realize what's going on and take the time to clear our own land mines and help others to do the same?
Frazzled, weary, driven human beings...what are you doing to yourself?
The constant rush-rush, over-scheduled, no time to just be with yourself and truly decompress and process the experiences of the day with yourself and your family? How is this really working for you? For your family? For your society? For your World?
Never a moment built into the daily schedule to stop and breathe? To see how you are feeling? To notice your physical body and the messages it is giving you? To check in emotionally with self and those around you?
Wouldn't you all thrive and be more effective in all you do if you thought more holistically about wellness at school and in the workplace?
What if we as a group of humans took time together to really open to a new way of approaching life? Imagine the possibilities that would pour forth as we joined hearts and minds and gave consideration to a new design of our days? What if we could start fresh, with all the wisdom we have from what we know is definitely not working--what if we could have a white board in front of us and have some fun recreating the schedules, the systems of school and work, and incorporate as the foundation that which is deeply important and valued?
What if we stopped running helter-skelter like our hair is on fire and instead became purposeful in questioning the status quo? Just because all the other families in your neighborhood live non-stop lives and wear a stressed-out badge of importance doesn't mean that their ways are truly laudable, does it?
Can you see the humor in what we have all come to esteem and think is "success"?
See the crazed, worn-out adults and children all around you. See yourself in the mirror. Be willing to step back long enough and ask, "Is this really working for any of us?" The smallest bit of self-reflection and societal-reflection could bring about waves of transformation.
Brothers and sisters, we are wiser than we know. We have just been put on the train of non-stop doing and we think it relates to how important we are -- so, we have failed to pay attention, to really question the way things currently are...but at any moment, of any day...we can ask the train's engineer to turn off the engines so we can gain perspective. If we don't do so soon, unfortunately, our trains will crash and we will be forced to deal with the energetic and life consequences of having crashed ourselves. Is all that really necessary?
If there are a few key questions to take away from this letter of great concern they are:
Are my life choices creating a sense of ease, peace and well-being?
Could I design my day so that I and my family feel a sense of thriving rather than stress?
What aspects of our societal status-quo are working? What aspects aren't working?
What power can I begin to connect to within myself to make some simple changes so that I foster good, healthy energy throughout my day?
Am I willing to make choices for my well-being even if it means stepping outside the crazed status-quo?
I implore each one of us to do a bit of soul searching and to take the time for awareness. These simple questions and times of contemplation can bring remarkable personal and societal "ah-ha" moments. The inspired ideas that rise up from within us can become the catalyst for change.
What I know is...there clearly must be a better way of doing this as a big human family.
What I know is...we are capable of bringing about these changes in consciousness.
What I know is...it starts with you and me. It starts with opening to a new set of possibilities.
I write from a deep sense of caring and concern, a longing for a better way of doing life together, Clearly there is far more that I desire to express but I pray this is a good starting point.
With all my love,
The Thought Dr.
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Why Are We All So Ashamed?
Do you like to look in the mirror? When you do, what do you see? Is it a friend or someone you don’t like very much, maybe even someone you are ashamed of? If your answer was self-critical, ask yourself why? What is it that dissatisfies you?
We are embarrassed about ourselves, our relatives, our incomes, our accents, the shade of our skin, our tribe of origin, our education…you finish your list. Have you considered the effects of these self-judgments? Have you really sat with them and let yourself feel their impact on your heart and mind?
I have. There have been many points in my life that insecurity has dominated my self-view. In my teenage years I disliked my “big” body. I felt fat, uncomfortable in my own skin. I was consumed with how to change my body so that I could feel better about myself.
When I attended Princeton, I carried my dislike of my figure with me. I couldn’t see myself as a tall, strong athlete. Instead, I interpreted myself as heavy and clumsy. At Princeton my self-criticism increased. I felt less than many of my peers—they were rich, from elite families and I was from a single-parent home where we had to trust each month that we would meet the bills. They were all so intellectual and I wondered if I had the academic prowess to fit in. My insecurities caused me to hide – to stay away from certain gatherings and if I went, to be quiet, unsure of how to present myself. I couldn’t fully see my successes on the basketball court or in the classroom because my vision was clouded with fear of not being good enough.
These shameful feelings are the source of deep, personal pain that we try to ignore and hide. We don’t want anyone else to know who we really are. Shame colors all of our relationships. Somehow we have concluded that we are flawed while others are “normal”.
So, we create a mask that hides everything that is real about us. We build up an identity to support our chosen image. As others accept it, we become more and more invested in maintaining that false image. We have worked hard to give people certain impressions. Everyone else appears to be doing just fine. We fear that if they “really knew us” they might laugh, disapprove or even worse, reject us. We become proud of this artificial view of ourselves.
So, we keep up the pretense. We are experts at putting on smiles, even when we’re crying inside. We feel terrified that if the “truth” about our life is uncovered then our lives will be shattered. The irony is that we are already shattered inside. We feel helpless, unsure of how to put ourselves back together.
Silent suffering is a worldwide epidemic.
What we think of as our own private and unique suffering is actually very common. It’s ironic we feel so alone when the heartaches of the human experience visit us all. Because we reject ourselves we continually feel unacceptable to others. Many of us know the despair of having conclusively judged ourselves as just not good enough. The result? We become lost in addictions. Our anger festers. Physical, emotional, sexual and mental abuse from family, friends or strangers remains secret and unhealed. We ache inside, wanting agonizing memories and feelings to fade. Ironically, the more we push them away, the more power we give them.
Once we give voice to our story we realize we are not the only ones suffering! I’ve had encounters recently with people who were trapped by shame and pain of the past. One person in particular was unusually embarrassed by his family background and level of education. He was a warm, friendly articulate person but that wasn’t his view. He believed he didn’t know how to talk to people. Those who knew him were baffled and frustrated. They couldn’t understand why he felt this way. What did it matter that his family was poor and promiscuous?
For years he had kept a painful secret: he had been sexually abused as a child. He hadn’t told anyone because he assumed that it was his fault that it happened when he was just a child, barely 11. He had suffered intensely for over 10 years, feeling completely alone. He couldn’t sleep. This shame poisoned every aspect of his life. Finally, after years of silence, he confided in someone he trusted and the door opened for healing to begin.
I have found that most people relate to stories of people who honestly admit the pain of abandonment, disappointment, and other kinds of brokenness. If our experience as humans is so similar, why do all of us think our stories are unique and fear embarrassment if someone would ever discover the details? As William Blake once said, “Shame is pride’s cloak.” What we feel shame about and are most afraid to tell others is not what makes us different, it is what binds us together. How it does is our choice. It is either in mute discomfort or in compassionate connection if we are willing to take the risk to speak it aloud.
I’m not suggesting that you should blurt out your deepest secrets. What I am saying is that in private moments with yourself that you take off your mask. Begin to look differently in the mirror. Instead of looking with judgmental programming, look with the compassion of your Source. See your fears and insecurities, your wounds and secrets. Lovingly acknowledge them to yourself and the Divine. It might seem like a tiny step but it is a profoundly powerful move towards personal transformation.
As I sat in a coffee shop finishing this blog, a man walked through the door. I was astonished at the message on his t-shirt, “Take your mask off.” It reminded me of how much the Universe loves each of us. What we need always appears in the moment. Start where you are. Imagine this week how different you would feel if you took off your mask, looked in the mirror and opened to the possibility of absolutely loving yourself?
I will leave you with a beautiful poem to bring all this contemplation deeper....
Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That is how the light gets in.
(By Leonard Cohen, lyrics from his album The Future)
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.
Friday, September 9, 2016
She recalled how exhausted and upset she was at the time. She suffered tremendously as she tried to figure out how to help this child. She was worried, often sick to her stomach. She had sleepless nights. She was riddled with fear in her body, mind and spirit--always living in "worst-case-scenario" thinking. She said, "Trish, I wish I hadn't been in a panic those years. I wish I hadn't made my self sick to my stomach every day. I wasted so much life-energy fretting and feeling afraid of my child's future. Everything ended up turning out for my child. His path was just very different than most kids. He struggled all along the way but eventually found a way forward."
Too often, when we experience life struggles we add complexity too it. We add layers of thinking around it that increases our suffering. We torment ourselves in our minds. We make ourselves physically sick and emotionally distraught as we navigate difficulty.
We infuse self-judgment into the situation thinking that there must be something wrong with who we are because we have something challenging going on in our lives. Too often, we feel like we are the only ones that are having a hard time. But, we aren't. Just because the people around us put on smiles and pretend everything is okay, doesn't mean their lives are perfect or better. In some way, shape or form, they too have their day to day struggles. Underneath the masks and in their private moments, they too have panic and tears.
We add layers of fearful thinking to the difficulty. We project worst-case scenario outcomes into the future and thus live in a constant feeling of exacerbated trauma and panic. We literally exhaust our mind, body and spirit with the fear.
The reality for each of us is this: Life brings each and everyone of us intense, difficult challenges on a regular basis. Does this mean something is wrong with us? Does this mean something is wrong with our lives?
Our greatest wounds and difficulties become our greatest gifts to the planet. We are meant to experience a variety of intense periods of challenges to work through. These times of crisis can serve to strengthen us, to expand us, to cause us to deepen our views and grow our understanding. It is the experiencing, surpassing and overcoming that allow us the depths of the human experience....and the eventual compassion for others and wisdom to offer to the world at large.
If you are experiencing hardship, I have some good news for you today.
Your life IS on schedule. Your journey is unfolding just as it is meant to. Your "personal development plan" is coming about in the perfect way, at the appointed time. You are being grown!
So, could it be that we might be able to experience times of difficulty in a new way? What if life's difficult moments don't have to be filled with intense suffering?
What if rather than resisting and fighting what life brings our way, we began to simply open to it?
What if our spirit could relax into the situation rather than tensing up and cringing?
What if instead of judging ourselves and feeling there is something wrong with who we are, we instead realized that there is a Divine gift in every experience put on Life's path?
What if it is ALL meant for our highest good, growth and development--whether it is a mountain-top experience that exhilarates us or a dark-valley experience that confounds us?
Think of it this way. When you hear older people look back 20 years in their lives and describe the difficulty, they can do so with a deep perspective. They can see that no matter what it is that happened, somehow and someway, they made it through! They also often describe how the circumstances were used in some significant way to forward their journey and get them to new vistas and opportunities they could never have guessed would come about. They often say, "If only I knew then what I know now, I would not have been so upset, distraught and fearful during that period of my life."
What if rather than waiting for 20 years to have that depth of understanding, we began to choose that "20-year looking back view" in the here and now?
Let's stop judging the pain and difficulties as "something is wrong" or "this is bad." Instead, we can choose to know that no matter how things might appear, It is ALL RIGHT at ALL TIMES in ALL WAYS. It is more perfectly designed and woven together than we can comprehend.
We could look at our present trials and say--this situation may not feel good to me. But, if Life has brought the challenge, then I must have what it takes to make it through this situation one second at a time. We could refuse to judge ourselves and become fearful--and instead, open our hearts and mind knowing that the wisdom we need, the resources that need to appear will some how and some way come about. We could save ourselves tremendous exhaustion and choose to have faith and hope knowing that a Divine Grace is just as present in a time of difficulty as it is in a time of success and ease.
Let us all open to the idea today that it can be well with us and we can connect to peace no matter what we are facing.
I'm practicing these ideas with you.
With a smile and a hug,
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.
Monday, September 5, 2016
(If you missed the blog where I gave a full confession of the addiction that caused me great suffering, perhaps you want to read that before reading this blog: http://harnessyourpower.blogspot.com/2016/09/full-disclosure-confessions-of-my.html . I then shared Step 1 of my treatment plan and it may be wise to read that before you delve into today's materials: http://harnessyourpower.blogspot.com/2016/09/personal-treatment-plan-step-1.html .)
After I spent time observing my inner realms and discovering just how full my mind was of fear and self-judgment, at first a terrible grief overcame me. "How could I have done this to myself for so long?" I felt regret. I had wasted so much energy. I had experienced so much inner conflict and turmoil. I had been my own worst enemy.
I also felt tremendous relief! "No wonder I felt so awful! Now I understand where the terrible exhaustion, chest pain and emotional roller coaster ride had come from."
Discovering the root of my suffering--my thought patterns--was a major breakthrough for me. Just the fact that I was aware of the mental patterns, allowed me to not identify so closely with thoughts. This bit of distance the awareness created, showed me I am not my thinking. It took the edge off my pain. I realized that I could observe my thoughts and notice them without believing them wholeheartedly.
And, to go a step further, I realized that if I observed the old patterns starting inside my mind, I could push the "pause" button. I could create enough space, that timeless moment of opportunity, where I could make a new choice, a conscious choice of thoughts that would be based in the energy of love, self-kindness and empowerment.
As I worked through the process of self-discovery, I did a very simple exercise. I took a paper and a pen. I drew a line down the middle of the paper to make 2 columns. I titled the left column "My Current Thoughts" and I titled the right column "My New Thoughts". On the left column, I created two sections: Fears and Self-Talk. My paper looked like this (for people viewing this blog with their mobile phones, the formatting isn't working...so try to visualize this in your mind):
My Current Thoughts My New Thoughts
Through observation, I began to inventory all the thoughts that had been tormenting me and draining my energy. Once I started taking time to study my thoughts, I saw there were patterns. The same old fears played over and over in my head. The self-talk was highly predictable--I criticized myself about the same things day in and day out.
To unmask it all, I put it on paper.
It was amazing to see it in black and white. It felt embarrassing at first to discover that this mental programming was dictating how I felt and the results I was getting in my life experience.
But, it was empowering to realize that the haphazard mental programming could be thrown out. I realized that I had the power to write New, Fresh, Empowered thoughts that could transform my inner realms and allow me to experience more peace, joy and energy than ever before.
I took the first step and I wrote down the current thinking (yes, the thoughts I am writing below were actually some of the thoughts I'd been thinking--feel free to chuckle if you like):
My Current Thoughts My New Thoughts
I'm going to end up divorced like my parents were.
I'm going to run out of money and
not be able to pay my bills.
Maggie, my daughter, is going to be limited
because of her physical illness
I'm not good enough wife.
I'm not a good enough mom.
I should be more successful than I am right now.
My butt is too big.
My house is not as neat or nice as other peoples.
I'm overwhelmed and I can't handle all this.
There it was. The thoughts that I had allowed unknowingly to take over my life--those were the thoughts I had now captured and put on paper. It was now time to take my observations and move to the next phase of work.
It was time to construct new thoughts--conscious ones. I needed new thinking that would allow me to feel well, to be my best, to experience peace and to support my life journey.
So, I went to work. For each thought that was causing me to feel bad inside, I decided I would need to create a replacement thought--a new option. It was not easy to do this at first. I had gotten so used to viewing myself and my life from one perspective, that I struggled to find new options. Once I started the door to brainstorming new thoughts, new options came to mind. I also discovered books already written on the topic which were a treasure trove of new possibilities.
I went down my page and started filling in the second column. Here is some of what I did:
My Current Thoughts My New Thoughts
I'm going to end up divorced. I can create a good marriage.
I'm going to run out of money. I am abundant. I open to all that I need.
Maggie is going to be limited. I will do everything to give Maggie a good life.
I'm not good enough wife. I am a caring, compassionate wife.
I'm not a good enough mom. I give myself credit as a mom.
I should be more successful. I do be my best each day to get results.
My butt is too big. I choose to celebrate my shape.
So, that was the start of it. I began to look for:
What's good with me, with my life? vs. What's wrong with me, with my life?
What do I want to see happen in my life? (my vision) rather than "What am I afraid will happen?" (my fear)
Thought by thought, moment by moment, I began to experiment with new possibilities. I noticed quickly that when I was able to use the new thoughts, I felt better. I had more energy. I had peace. I felt my stress reduce.
And, when the old patterns of thinking tried to regain control in my mind, I used my "observation capacity" to just notice the old patterns rather than believing them fully. The power of awareness I gained by watching my mental patterns allowed me to see humor in it all rather than unconsciously going deep into pain and suffering.
I played with new ways of thinking. I experimented. With time, I started to find new thoughts that felt better, that resonated with me.
Be patient with yourself--old habits take time to release. And so, the work of consciously choosing better thoughts began. Day by day, thought by thought, I began to do the inner practice of creating new habits in my mind. In time, some remarkable changes came about inside me. (Caution: I chose to be determined, deeply dedicated to my personal change. I did this work daily for months on end...and decided never to turn back. This resulted in drastic improvements in my peace and well-being. Only do this if you feel ready.)
I hope and pray this gives you some fresh energy, some new ideas to take away. I recommend you give the exercise I described above a try. It is powerful.
If you get stuck, don't take it all too seriously. You will find the solutions you need with time. And, there are plenty of people who are a bit further ahead on this path of conscious thought --seek out help from them. (That also means you can reach out to me if you want to run ideas by me...).
With my love,
Patricia Omoqui, The Thought Dr.